So, after blogging about all the changes that were about to happen, I deemed it appropriate to blog about how it all really went down. Basically, the last couple weeks have been a chaotic, stressful nightmare. Change is hard. But things have to get worse before they can get better - that's just the way life goes.
I moved out of my parents' house. The actual moving process was long and inconvenient and annoying. Sorting out utilities and conquering a battle with AT&T has been unnecessarily stressful. And I am very broke. But now, I am back on my own again, living 2 feet away from my best friend and much more than 2 feet away from my parents, within a reasonable driving distance from anywhere I need to go...and I am loving it!
I got a new job. It has been overwhelming and stressful and has made me doubt my abilities and passions and wonder why I searched for a new job when I already had a good one. But I get to hang out with some pretty cool (and very naughty) kids everyday that come from crappy home lives and are desperate for everything that I hope to give them. I have a pretty amazing opportunity at Team 21 to not only grow and develop my skills but to have a huge impact on some kids' lives. People don't just get part-time jobs like this everyday.
With all the change happening in and around me, I have come to the conclusion that human beings are naturally resistant to change and chronically desiring instant gratification. Even for a person like me that loves change and is always seeking it out even when it is unnecessary, actually getting through the transition and making the adjustment is like pulling teeth. And the thing that makes it suck so much is that we live in a society that provides us with anything we want right now! So, we assume that change is going to be the same...we will instantly get from crappy A to far better B without any tears in between.
Think of the Israelites: Moses busted his butt to get these guys of out hundreds of years of slavery in Egypt, and God did some crazy stuff to make it happen. Then they spend the next 40 years repeatedly rebelling (sounds like my 4th graders at Team 21) against God and whining about how they wish they would have just stayed in Egypt. Seriously? God is taking you to the freaking Promised Land! Just suck it up and get there...yet here I am, whining about the stresses of moving and woes of transitioning into a new job when they have been the things I've been looking forward to, my "promised land," for months.
So, what I'm trying to say here is that change isn't easy. It sucks. It's hard. Crying is the only thing that makes it bearable sometimes. But in the end, it is so worth it! So, if you are lost in transition right now and whining about the desert and how much you miss being a slave...just know that the promised land is on the other side. And the 40 years will totally be worth it once you get there. Don't be afraid of change because of the land in between.
